A Piece of Cake

I thought that coming back from the UK I can take a good rest before starting to teach again but then I was not that lucky. These past few days, I did not sleep well. I have been burning the midnight oil just to recover back all my precious picture files which lost accidentally erased by someone who I think so careless in handling technical things. The worst thing that person blamed my laptop and only after I got so much mad that that person give me a text message to appologise. Yeah I might accept that person appology but I would never trust that person or anyone who I think not literate enough to handle a notebook especially mine!

Once bitten twice shy, that, I must remember and I also must remind myself to be more careful in keeping back up of my works. Thanks to Q for listening and helping me to get several softwares in order to trace my picture files. It took me 4 nights to try and error each software. I managed to find a good one that scanned all over the deleted picture files. However, sadly only few can be fully recovered while others have been damaged and corrupted.

Seem like I have to accept things that would never come back. Sound like I am losing someone.

This month I have received alot of wedding invitations from my friends. Most of my friends are getting married and I was thinking why on earth that I don't really feel worry at all. Maybe I'm still have things to catch on. Things that I want to achieve but not yet. In fact, my parents have started to talk about married with me. Last month, my mom asked me what if I would have to marry earlier than I expected. Suddenly, I felt goosebumps all over my body and unexpectedly stress out by that idea. From there I just knew that I'm mentally not ready yet. The problem is I have no idea why I felt that way.

I am not so pro-active these days. No more teaching, students gone for semester break. Not many friends to hang out because different interests and some are too busy with families. I am trying so hard to start writing again in blogs but bad internet connection flatten my mood to write. Only today, I decided to bring my laptop in my office to get good internet connection and adjust my LJ settings.

Oklah...while I still have the mood to write, just want to share some thoughts lah about these Malaysians people. It happens to me many times where people just pushed me when they could not walk through because I blocked their way. Sometimes some appologised but most of the time they just walked off without giving an appology.

I just do not understand why is it so hard from the first place to say 'excuse me' or if they do not know English at least say 'tumpang lalu' or 'minta lalu' whatever suits la which can be understood. Another thing I noticed that sometimes when I am concertrating on something and blocked the person's way, he/she just kept quite and waited for me to move. Haiyo. If I did not realized the existence of that person behind or beside me, tunggu lah dia kat situ berjam-jam. Sigh...

Last Friday, my new friends and I went to Kuantan and watched the new Yasmin Ahmad's movie, Talentime. It was a unique movie I should say, 4 stars out 5 that I can give. The movie soundtracks are nice and the story line is very simple. It is not about the talentime competition but it is more about those who joined it. Each performer has his/her own life and stories. Once talentime ends so thats the end of the movie but it doesn't mean a story of a person ends unless he dies lah. Thats why, one of my friends, Marina said this is not a Talentime story but a Tale n Time. It's more like a tale and taking our time to watch it. I really love the movie soundtracks especially one sang by Aizat titled 'Just One Boy'. If there is a soundtrack CD of Talentime I would get one for myself. OKlah I have few 'baju' need to wash. Will write more soon!

I wish March ends soon. Seriously, I kept thinking all my lucks are going upside down after lots of bad things happened more than good things. Firstly, I had food poisonning this month. After 6 years of not having it why on earth do I have to face one this year. Secondly, I had terrible half day fever. Really have no idea whether it is due to the weather or drink too much cold drinks. Thirdly, my court shoes, the right side heel broke when I was excitedly giving lecture to my students. It was the funniest thing but embarrassed myself indeed. Fourthly, I lost my rm50 after withdraw money from bank. I was not sure whether the atm machine forgot the rm50 or I mistakenly dropped it somewhere. It was careles really. And currently, having chesty cough and a little bit of flu. It irritates me so much especially in class. I have been two classes since Sunday and the students had to wait for me to pause due to coughing. I can see the sympathy faces from them. How sweet...This makes me realize how important is health when you are a lecturer. Starting from now, I always make sure that I won't miss my vitamins supplement and exercise consistently. Hope to get well soon. In fact, while writing this I'm coughing. huhuhu....

I just can't believe it. 4 months have gone, meaning I have worked with UiTM for 4 months already! Bravo Ernie, Bravo. Time really move fast than I thought. My mom kept asking me about PhD and I'm still in a slow mode. Trying to settling down after 4 years of studying. I think I need to see life and experience more things then only I think I'll get ready to study again. However, I do miss my student life. Working life is fun indeed especially when you know that you'll get monthly payment but it is a very demanding life too. Everything must be on time and no excuse when you need to please your boss as well unless la you are the boss. Anyway, whatever it is, I love my job very much. I don't really care of being tired and having low pay (my pay is fine) as long as the job suits my interest, I'm happy.

Man, I miss UK. I just miss the freedom I always had. Here, I'm stucked with work load and also not many friends to share the same interest of activities. Sometimes, I just feel like socialising with my students who are quite close to me. But you know, really have to set some limit between me and them as most of them are like 20s years old which not so gap age as me. I miss playing paintball during weekends. I miss shopping in my favourite outlet NewLook and ZARA. I miss going for travel. I miss having weekends parties with friends. I miss playing basketball with my bestfriend, Chiunghui. I miss crazying with Wang Wen and trying on new stylish clothes. I miss dancing in Celdich with Vanita. I miss talking to my accomodation Cleaner, Marry. I miss watching movies once a week with Ema. I miss my gay friends, Ken and Ben. I miss trifle, my favourite desserts which I always had once a week when I was there. I miss Winter and Snow. I miss Autumn, Spring and Summer. I just miss all these.